Friday, March 16, 2012

Something Seemingly Great

Something seemingly great is about to happen.  It might actually be really great, but commitment issues and a knot in the pit of my stomach are more comfortable with describing this something-that-is-about-to- happen as seemingly great.

It could be horrible.

My career is shifting.  I love when my career shifts. I love when I am handed a broken, chaotic issue and am immediately trusted with fixing it, creating efficiency, and making things better for others.  I've done it twice in 5 years.

It was difficult but both times, the final result made the difficulty, the late and long hours, the lack of personal life, worth it.  In the end, I was able to regain stability, free time, and be more available to friends and family.  Efficiency and processes, once in place, allowed me to control my hours and take vacations.

Vacations are wonderful.

Maybe that's why admitting that this opportunity could be great, instead of seemingly great, is difficult.  I have liked being a recovering workaholic.  I have enjoyed being more dependable in my personal life.  I love feeling like I can shut my phone off when I go on vacation, even though I don't actually shut it off.

The 5 years ago Me would be jumping in with both feet, optimistic and ready to roll on this new endeavor.  Having been through this before, and knowing the pain points, the 5 years later Me is just feeling. . .worn.  I'm feeling a little old.

I am cursing my entrepreneurial spirit.

Possibly, this is just my new way of jumping in.  Maybe I am just thinking more seriously about the short- and long-term effects.  Maybe nearing the age of 30 has subconsciously made me a little more cautious.  Maybe it will be good.

Something good is about to happen.  Stay tuned.


  1. Thought-provoking post here! You're right to suggest that being brave can look so differently in each situation, personally and professionally. Really enjoyed reading today!