Monday, April 30, 2012

Not Just Writer's Block?

I've come down with a horrendous case of writer's block.  For weeks, situations and ideas that normally would spark a crazy uncontrollable excitement to write, were just situations and ideas.  I didn't jot them down on a post it or email myself as a reminder or key phrase to work from. . .I just went about my day, uninspired but not even really caring that I was uninspired.

At first I wasn't worried.  Writer's block happens to everyone.  It was the fact that I didn't feel any urgency or sadness about the writer's block that got me worried.  Do I hate writing?

All at once, late last week, everything was inspiring!  I would log in to blogger immediately just to get a draft going.  Three sentences in, maybe a couple of paragraphs in, I'd stop and read it.  Noooo.  I don't want to finish it.  I have several short drafts saved, 30 new blog post ideas in my head, and no motivation at all to finish what I started writing or even get my new thoughts in draft form.

What is happening?!

Yesterday, I read an entire novel front to back.  That's a good sign; at least that verifies that I haven't given up on both writing and reading.  After I finished the novel, though, I had a thought.  I considered it and devised how I would write it out, what the main point would be, how I would set up the main point. .  .and I realized it wasn't that I didn't want to write about it.  I realized I wanted to write more about it.  It deserved more time and description, more depth than just a post.  A book?

Maybe I'm finally brave enough to start writing the novel I've always had in the back of my mind, in the center of my heart.  Maybe I'm unable to write a blog post because I know just a simple post won't do it justice.

If THAT is what is happening, and I haven't fallen out of love with words and stories, I am okay.  Now, I have to start outlining this novel.

2 comments:

  1. Do it and like it! You do your novel and I will work on my children's book series in ernest. :)

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  2. http://mikenbabsblog.blogspot.com/May 14, 2012 at 6:10 PM

    Hi Jess, Thanks for joining my blog. That is an adorable story about Axton. I hope you and Tabitha are writing the cute things down. Then when he is married with children of his own he will really appreciate the cute stories. I do that with our Grandbabies, especially because I didn't write things down with our boys and now I don't remember. :>(
    You are a really good writer but you can't force it. Wait until something inspires you. Can't wait until I can read your published books!
    Barbara

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